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The Way Up is Down

This is a saying that we have heard in many different contexts, but nowhere is it more evident then in the chronicles of scripture.  When we look at what brings a man down we will find the words pride, haughtiness, and proud somewhere near its vicinity.  However, equally as true we will find near the word humility, meekness, or humble, the words exalt, exalted, above, lifted up, and grace.  It is in our weakness (not in our strength) that his strength is made perfect in us.  (2 Cor. 12:9) Thus, out of weakness we are made strong, and those who consider themselves strong are made weak.  Hebrews 11 chronicles what men in faith towards God were able to  accomplish, not in their strength but in their weakness, God’s strength prevailed and they received the victory over various trials of life.  The economy of God doesn’t operate by the same currency exchange rate that we are accustomed to in the world system.  Our resume of awards, accomplishments, and education are counted as dung, reckoned as filthy rags, consistently we see ordinary men who did extraordinary things not by picking themselves up by their own boot straps, or do the acts of self made men pave the way, but rather men and women who took Yah at his word were able to do what men who were considered great in the world were not.  Yah would over and over again show us in battle he didn’t use thousands of men, but will obtain the victory over the enemy of His people by using small armies to gain mighty victories.  Why, you may ask?  Because it serves as an example of this very principle I am sharing with you in this article that its in our weakness, weak positions, lowly spirit, that He is exalted.  It stands to reason and too easy for man to get the glory when a million man army with unending arsenals can defeat a 100,000 man army with limited arsenals.  It illustrates that with Yah you always have the majority on your side even when in the natural it doesn’t look like it.  As John the Baptist made clear that he must decrease so that the Messiah may increase.  The world knows that He has come when the impossible, becomes possible.

When we come to the end of ourselves then low and behold this is when we have an ear to hear from the one who can deliver us from all our woes.  The world can be very loud and it seems to want to amplify itself and the term it uses when it wants to exalt men is the word “proud”.  Yet this is a word that never in scripture is positively used when directed towards mankind.  It was actually the catalyst that would bring a person down so that they could be exalted through the act of humility.  Yet this is a word we use positively to express our feelings towards acts we approve of.  So in effect that which Yah has called evil, we have categorized as good. (Isa. 5:20)  We give glory to man for what Yah made possible to accomplish and then wonder why our children don’t believe in God.  They attribute their accomplishments in life to what they did, in total unbelief not realizing that when they receive the benefits, raises, or achievements that it is God who giveth man power to create wealth. (Deut. 8:17-18) It is the power of the Almighty that makes prosperity possible for us to have, because despite popular opinion, there is no good thing that dwells in this flesh.  (Rom. 7:18) That which is good, right, and holy in us is inherited through our relationship with Christ, Messiah Yehoshua.

Even our “good” if you will has selfish motivation apart from Him.  This is why we can only know love because he first loved us. (1 Jn 4:19) The concept of sacrificing yourself for the very people who are responsible for taking your life is not something any man would do.  How many are up for dying for your friend?  This one life you got with no promise of what will happen next, are you willing to give it up for a friend, even a best friend?  Your child, your spouse, perhaps, but a friend?  We might give a kidney but our life, hardly.  The idea of giving to people who can’t give to you, the proof that we can’t do it in and of ourselves nor would it come into our mind is revealed in how we live our lives today.  How often do we pour our finances or our time to benefit people with absolutely no expectation of receiving anything in return?

Here you have Yehoshua our Messiah in the prime of life, at the age when most people are just beginning to become established.  He himself was being established in the miracle making business going about doing good in all the land.  At a time when many of us would be comfortably married in our single family dwelling with 2 cars and 2.5 kids with great jobs with benefits our Savior was crucified with none of those things.  In fact when asked by someone who was interested in following him it was said of him that he didn’t even have a place to lay his head.  (Mat 8:20)  Be honest, how likely would you be to follow or join anyone’s network marketing business who didn’t have a home to share their home based business to you with?  This would in effect be the very opposite resume of one who we would consider successful and would want to follow, yet on what would definitely be considered the way down was he lifted up and us who put our trust in Him lifted up with him.  It’s the best illustration in scripture I have of what it means to humble yourself before the Almighty so that he can lift you up in dew season. (Jas 4:10)

Where do you find yourself in 2018?  Are you in a place of introspection wondering what has happened to your life?  Perhaps you are on top of the world and financially in the strongest position you have ever been but feeling a lack of fulfillment?  Maybe you have no money and wondering where you went wrong.  Many are sick and crying out for answers to a merciful God how you found yourself here?  Many would say life is what you make it, but in reality life is who you make it about?  If life is about you, your family, or your business then a sad life it will be because you set the bar too low.  If you are going to set a standard for your life why choose an imperfect model to build upon?  That is like building your life on sand instead of on a rock.  A rock is steady, unyielding, and will stand the test of time, whereas sand is destined to settle and give way to the changing climate of the atmosphere.  The only blessed assurance we can have is to humble ourselves into the hand of the Messiah and to lift up Him which cannot be brought low, yet was brought low for us only to be lifted up and to lift us up with Him into heavenly places within His kingdom.  Indeed Father what is man that you are mindful of us. (Psa. 8:4)  So what do we say when we are faced with situations that would tempt us to answer with “I’m pro-d of you” find a way to point them and keep yourself focused on the one who made the moment possible.  My new response is to say, “Father I am humbled by you”, and to the person who made their goal possible, “praise God for giving you the victory” or “To God be the Glory”.  Because its his anyway, for every good and perfect gift comes from him. (2 Cor. 9:8; Jas 1:17) If you must be proud of anyone then be proud of Yah, for it is He who made the person and the moment possible, and be happy for them for they are the beneficiary of God’s grace in their life.

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The Believer’s Unbelief

It’s been a minute since I have written on this page and partially because life has happened once again and as a result my life has been restructured.  Nevertheless, this is the most important blog I own as it deals with the matters that address our salvation.  While most of my other blogs are focused on enhancing our quality of life in these bodies, at the end of the day these bodies will only take us so far.  Which brings me to the importance of today’s topic.  It’s an area that we all struggle in and I pray that this article both convicts you and encourages you.

As the title suggest this article deals with a paradox many of us, as believer’s don’t think we have but is very pervasive.  When we think of “unbeliever’s” we typically think of those who have not made a confession of faith in Messiah who is called the Christ, Yehoshua (Jesus).  However, the passage of scripture I will be sharing with you today reveals the least likely person you would consider to be an unbeliever, Moses.

Num 20:12 And the LORD spake unto Moses and Aaron, Because ye believed me not, to sanctify me in the eyes of the children of Israel, therefore ye shall not bring this congregation into the land which I have given them.

Many of you would say if Moses is an unbeliever where in the world does that leave us?  While this is a reasonable thought, we don’t want to get side tracked on the lesson before us, which is that a person can be a believer in unbelief and understanding the context of this scripture sheds that light.  The verse above is the passage of scripture surrounding Moses smiting the rock when God specifically instructed him to speak to the rock that we know having read the end of the book was Christ.

1Co 10:4 And did all drink the same spiritual drink: for they drank of that spiritual Rock that followed them: and that Rock was Christ.

This incident brings up two important points but for the sake of this article we will only focus on why God counted his action as unbelief.  If we are familiar with this scripture we know that there was once a command by God to Moses to smite the rock, (Exo. 17:6) however, in this instance the instruction to Moses was to speak to it.  Side bar if you are not familiar with this account in scripture I highly recommend reading it in its entirety because its important to pay attention to the details of God.  We never know how God is revealing Messiah through our actions as 1 Cor. 10 points out to us that the rock that they were drinking from was Christ.  Thus the significance of Moses unbelief in this area means that it painted a false picture of what the Messiah would do.  Jesus (YeHoshua) would only die once for all.  There would be no provision for him dying for our sin twice, and for Moses to smite that Rock twice distorts the picture.

Which brings up a very important point, if our obedience paints a picture of Messiah’s life to the world, what do you think a believing unbeliever’s disobedience paints a picture of concerning our Messiah?  I shutter to consider the thought, but the reality is whenever I disobey a direct or written command of the Almighty God counts it as unbelief and it’s a thought that should cause all of us to rethink how we sanctify God’s word in our lives.

It must be stated that Moses motivation however, was not to smite Christ, as this was not what was revealed to him concerning the rock he hit at the time but rather the context of scripture reveals that his anger concerning the murmuring of the people provoked him to wrath in such a way that he heeded not to the direct command of the Almighty.  This decision would cost him entrance to the Promised land on earth.  However, don’t make the mistake that many may be inclined to make that this flaw in judgment cost him eternity.  Here is where we can be encouraged because though we fail to follow God’s instructions fully our unbelief concerning him in areas of our faith doesn’t nullify our ability to have eternal life.  However, here is where the conviction should come because what this passage of scripture does make clear is that our disbelief does reap a temporal penalty that can cost us dearly.

Here is the lesson of Moses, while we as believers confess a faith in Jesus Christ (YeHoshua Ha Maschiach) in what ever area we don’t do what God has clearly instructed whether that is by his direct command as Moses did or by his written command as we see throughout scripture our failure to obey is considered in the sight of God as unbelief.  While for many of us entrance into the promise land is not the penalty we pay there is indeed a penalty for our unbelief.  What the example of Moses reveals to us is that it is clear that no man who saw God move in the way that God moved in his life and in the lives of others could be pegged an unbeliever in God, but it does reveal that we can be unbelieving as it relates to God based on our lack of belief in sanctifying him in certain areas of our life based on our obedience or disobedience to his commands and the leading of His Spirit.  While we may be doing so out of provoked anger or simply believing that his command doesn’t apply to us, or not understanding how a specific result can occur from keeping a specific command the effect is the same.

Finally, the end analysis of this particular story is this, it is possible for us to be a Believer in Messiah, yet not believe his word and the evidence that reflects our unbelief is based on whether or not we are keeping his instruction (written or spoken) or ignoring it, and doing things our own way despite his instruction.  Like Moses, our unbelief in whatever area of our walk with Christ may not cost us eternal life, but like Moses rest assured that it is costing us and that cost should not be taken lightly.

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How to Understand the Will of YHVH: Day 6: The Earth Brings Forth

And God said, Let the earth bring forth the living creature after his kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the earth after his kind: and it was so.

Gen 1:24

 On day 6 when Yah spoke the first thing he commands the earth to do is to bring forth. The connotation here is similar to that of a woman bringing forth a child into the earth.   On day 5 the sky and the waters brought forth it’s creature and on this day the land brings forth it’s creatures. Yah makes a distinction between us, and the creatures that come before our arrival; the common link that we share with land animals is that we came forth from the dust of the earth. Let’s keep reading we will then see the distinction that is important to dispel the myth of evolution, and why the belief that we come from these same creatures that were created at the beginning of day 6 shall not be, if we believe God and that he exists.

 And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

Gen 1:25

 Again, notice that when God created every living creature that came before us that he makes it clear that they were created “after his kind”. Once again he repeats this for every beast, and cattle, and every creeping thing. Why? So that no one would get the idea that cross breeding between different kinds could exist. Thus a monkey can NEVER produce a human being because we are not of the same kind.

And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.

Gen 1:26-28

If we believe that God is indeed God and that he is not a man that he should lie then we must believe that this word that was written for us is true. The evidence of that belief is reflected in our acceptance of the verses written above. First and foremost what distinguishes us from the birds of the air, the fish of the sea, the beasts of the earth, and that which creepeth upon the earth is while God made it clear that it was good what he created before us, he never said about anything he created up to the point that he created man that they were in “his image and likeness”. He didn’t give the birds of the air dominion over the fish of the sea, or the beasts of the earth dominion over the creeping things of the earth. The power to reign, rule, and subdue the earth was given only to one created being and that was those who he said were in his image and likeness created male and female, them alone was dominion given. Work was created for Adam and Eve before they got here. Reinforcing the truth we know that idle minds are the devil’s workshop. When Yah created mankind he understood that he needed to have something to do. This is why so many men receive so much satisfaction from working, and many die after they retire. Why? Because wrapped up in what we do we find purpose, fulfillment meaning in life. The will of YHVH is not for mankind to walk aimlessly on this earth just fulfilling their own pleasures but to find fulfillment in discovering and living out their purpose by using their gifts that have been provided to them. We are not supposed to bury our gift but reproduce it. Touching other peoples lives with it, lest we lose it and our talent be given to another who will use and multiply it. Anything that wasn’t fruitful was hewn down, because dead weight can’t carry you to the next level. Accessing the dead weight in our lives is a good thing, because that which is not a part of your destiny is a distraction from it.

Questions to Ponder:

  • What did God instruct you to do with your life? If you don’t know have you asked? Scripture teaches we have not because we ask not, and he also covered if we ask and don’t receive. If we come to God wanting something just to fulfill our own pleasures we won’t get what we asked for. (James 4:1-3)
  • How do you value your life? Do you see yourself as less than or mediocre? Do you see yourself as being made in the image and likeness of God? Does your life and the way you carry yourself represent an example of the Father who you were patterned after? If you don’t evaluate who or what is in your life or who or what is not in your life that is giving you a false image of the original intent of your design?
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How To Understand The Will of YHVH for your Life: Day 4 Created To Be A Sign That Shines

And God said, Let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days, and years: And let them be for lights in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth: and it was so.

Gen. 1:14-15

            Notice where YHVH put the lights? Far removed from the earth and in a place visible to every place on the earth. Why? A sign must have the ability to be perceived in some way in order to be effective. A sign is for a purpose it ministers to every living creature underneath it. As we were instructed by our Messiah to preach the Gospel to every creature, because not only were we affected by the sin of Adam, but as the scripture also says the whole creation groaneth and travaileth waiting for the children of God to appear. (Mark 16:15; Rom. 8:21-22) A sign tells you something important and like an exclamation mark it is set apart to reflect attention to itself. A moon big enough that you feel like you can reach out and touch it can’t be overlooked, you can choose to ignore it, or dismiss it, but those who pay attention, know what time it is, and can map their way by it. Perception and understanding is important this is why scripture rewards the person who understands and perceives. See you can see and not see, and you can hear and not hear, but the person who can see and hear is liken unto the wise virgins who understood the importance of having a vessel full of oil, in the event the Lord delays his coming. (Matt. 25)

Signs give clear direction to the person perceptive enough to pay attention, and know what it means. This is the second time in Creation that God is going to say something about “lights” being created. On day one there was no sun, moon, or stars, only God, He himself lit the world up for four days. By day four He shared the light that was within himself with the world in the expression of a Great light to rule the day (the Sun) and a lesser light (the moon) to rule the night and what was after that was fragments of light that salt and peppered the sky called (stars).

Notice that signs is only the first part of how these lights function, they are also said to be for seasons. Your ability to know whether it is summer or fall will be based on these same signs in the sky. In our lives seasons will change and our ability to discern that change will be based on understanding how the heavenly bodies directly relate to our lives. What happens when you haven’t accomplished what you should have within the season that was provided? Does it carry forward or must we shift our thinking and our purpose to fit with the new season ahead of us?


Time is not forever, and if the changing of days and the shifting of light doesn’t tell us anything else it tells us that time is continuing, and every day we receive new mercies, why? Because gradually, but continuously even as the days change and new days arise, so also does our purpose have to change. Yesterday’s mercy isn’t extended to us today, or tomorrow, therefore new mercies must be provided for new days. You can’t recapture or accomplish what you were graced to do yesterday tomorrow, and the more tomorrows that come the less possible it will be to recapture the things you had in your heart to do years before. These signs are a constant reminder that we are on borrowed time, and any unnecessary baggage only serves as a distraction from fulfilling today’s purpose. Thus, while it is yet day we are NOT to harden our heart. Why? Because a hard heart can’t hear God and without hearing the Father you are destined to miss out on fulfilling in the season you’re in your purpose.

How many of us go to bed haunted by NOT meeting the goals that we have established for the day? How much of that could really be our acknowledging how short we are falling of fulfilling HIS desire for us in that day. Let’s consider what all God is accomplishing in a day. We have gone passed four of them and we all should agree that if we had to do all that he did on any single day it would be a massive undertaking. On day six He created us in His image and likeness, that being said what do you think His expectation of us would be? We all are going to have to give a reckoning or account of what we did with the signs and seasons he has given us. No excuses are going to be acceptable, we are either going to find hits or suffer the loss of the misses in our fulfillment of this work HE is doing. This is why understanding the will of God is so vitally important. Every day we put a new piece in the puzzle that makes up His overall plan for our life. The goal is to have the puzzle complete before we leave. Paul put it this way, he finished his course. (2 Tim 4:7) We do not want to leave any pieces behind because every one of us have our own puzzle to finish that we will put together with every other persons piece until we accomplish this amazing plan that God has laid out since Day One.

This brings me to the next thing these lights were to tell us, he didn’t stop at just signs and seasons, but stated that these lights were also for days. What we have touched on is the importance of our days.  How they are numbered just as the stars are numbered, and some days we can seemingly see every star, other days we see them shooting, and some days we don’t see them at all because they are hidden. While we may never live long enough to accurately number every star as sure as the Lord knows every number of hair on our head he knows the numbers of the stars and our days are accounted for. The bottom line is that is how we are, there are some days that we are shooting and moving amidst the stagnate stars around us making our mark. But how many of us can say we see shooting stars everyday? This is not a good thing we should always be moving in a way that others when they see us, sees Him high and lifted up. Our star should make people have to look up as every shooting star does exactly that. It calls you to attention, make you stop what you are doing and notice it’s presence. Unfortunately, many of us don’t have clear nights where the world can see us because instead we are hiding it under a bushel, or we are being distracted by the grey clouds that seek to distract us from living. Thus, most days we are like those stars hidden above the clouds. Our hidden visibility spanning years rather than just days.

This is the final thing lights are for, years. When we delay our purpose we find ourselves further behind schedule.  Signs in the heaven can tell us things that will happen years away.  Which is the other end of the spectrum.  Just as Daniel who received amazing revelation about things that would take place long after he was gone, we do serve the same God who has not stopped sharing revelation about the future with his people.  The only ones who lack benefit from this truth are those who refuse to listen.  Abraham had things put in place in his life and made decisions concerning his life based on a reality he would not live to see with his physical eye.  Yah even told Abraham to look at the stars in the heaven and prophetically revealed to him that his seed would be as numerous as they were. (Gen. 15:5)  Therefore, the stars in the heaven can tell us the future, but we must always remember that the future it tells is not focused on us, but on the One who created them.  They tell us about the Messiah, even as the wise men who sought the Christ knew by the stars that he had been born. (Matt. 2)

Questions to ponder?

What are you doing with the time Yah has given you?

Are you still focused on accomplishing tasks that’s time has passed in your life?

Is your heart open and receptive to what Yah is speaking for you to do today?

Have you put aside dead weights that seek to hinder you from fulfilling more perfectly God’s plan for your life?



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How To Understand The Will Of YHVH For Our Lives: Day Three: Gathering To Be Fruitful

It has been a while, but I haven’t forgotten the series, just enjoying the Feast days provided by our Heavenly Father.  A break from routine can be refueling for the Soul.  So we are now on Day Three and there is much to learn and much to see.  We will dissect and digest every morsel the Father has provided for us in this day of Creation to see how it impacts His Will for Our lives.
And God said, Let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land appear: and it was so.

Gen 1:9

Throughout scripture we see this theme being carried out rather for good or evil. At the tower of Babel people gathered together, in opposition to Yah, yet even He recognized the power in their unity. Thus His response to confuse their speech was predicated by the statement, because they are one, nothing shall be impossible for them. (Gen. 11:6) It’s when the body reaches unity in the faith that it reaches maturity. (Eph. 4:13)

And God called the dry land Earth; and the gathering together of the waters called he Seas: and God saw that it was good.

Gen 1:10  

The theme of dividing, the element of two gatherings with opposing ideologies, directions, and functions. Before fruitfulness can take place there must be a separating and gathering of the waters. Like wheat from the tares, or authentic and counterfeit money it is only after the dividing of that which is evil is separated from that which is righteous, then and only then can effective fruitfulness for the kingdom be achieved. It’s when we gather with those who have the water that we realize how dry we were without it. It is in the presence of those with the same motivation and who are walking in their purpose that we begin to discover our own, and it is out of that discovery that we begin to find peace with ourselves and others around us, and can genuinely rejoice with others who fulfill theirs. Remembering Yah’s desire is for us to be fruitful and multiply and He is not looking for any type of fruit but quality fruit. This is even evident in the distinction between how he received Cain and Abel’s offering. Any kind of fruit, any kind of way is not acceptable. He wants good fruit, and abundant fruit. This can’t be achieved retrieving mixed teachings, only that pure wisdom that comes from above will provide the direction needed that is put in place by Yah’s built in organized family structure.

  And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so.

And the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

Gen 1:11-12 

  Every seed yielded fruit after its kind. What kind are you?   We can’t begin to understand the will of God for our lives if we don’t know what kind we are. You can spend your entire life trying to become an orange tree when your seed is that which came from an apple. What ends up happening if you do that is you will stifle your fruit and you will be barren instead of fruitful.

The days of Creation are ordinal for life, meaning every detail put in place was essential to preparation for the next. Shooting out as a star, or having your brightness shine forth as the noon day requires separating from that which is dry and congregating with that which hydrates and nourishes, and cleanses the body like water. It’s hard to get all the nutrients your body needs if it is clogged. Understanding the order of God in the creation week helps us understand the order we should have in life. Recognizing that every piece to our particular puzzle has a specific place it needs to be and some pieces won’t be readily identifiable until other pieces are in place. I can’t expect to read well without knowing the alphabet. Understanding Yah’s order, and understanding what seed you are in His garden is key to unlocking the mystery of His will for your life.

Take some time to find out what “kind” you are. Ask the Father for understanding as to what He put you here on earth to do and access if the things you are doing are preparing you for that or hindering you from completing that. It would be a terrible thing to have spent your life following your own will, thinking that this was the will of God for you. Which is why we are covering this area. The more we understand who we are and why we are here the better it will be for the entire body of Christ. Every joint supplying what the body needs require every joint knowing what it is supposed to do.

It excites me to see people living our their purpose and fulfilling God’s will, it serves as an example and motivation to know that He has one for me, and if for me I know for you. He desires for us to be fruitful, and you don’t have to have children come out of your body to achieve that. As the scripture have said more are the children of the barren. (1 Sam. 2:5) If you have raised up seed to fulfill the “kind” that the Lord has called them to be, then you have bore seed unto Yah which is far more precious then just bearing seed in the natural. Many bear seed in the natural and cast them aside, whereas those who don’t bear in the natural, take in the natural seed and birth them in the Spirit such that they know who they are and what they were called here to do. For which is better to be born in the natural or to be born in the Spirit? Or should I say which is of greater profit to the Kingdom of God, to be born in the natural or to be born again in the Spirit?

In day three this is what you will discover, and I encourage you to ponder each question, chew on it, and let it regurgitate and chew some more, for there is much the Father has to say about His will for your life, but until now many haven’t been listening. This is the time to take out and meditate on His word and get instruction and direction.


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How to Understand the Will of YHVH for Your Life: Day Two Divided by Divine Mandate

We discovered on Day One that when Yah (God) spoke, things happened. Let’s decode the prophetic mystery that everyone who successfully completes day one find themselves entering into. Remembering that until we hear and embrace the voice of YHVH to come in through the only door he has made available to Him, which is Yahushah. It is not until the Light of the World invade our darkness that we are able to graduate from day one. Until the Almighty speaks the only thing we have is no form, void, and darkness saturating us. Yet, as stated last week, being born is not the end of eternal life in the Kingdom of Yah but rather is the beginning of life. So let’s see how day two provides instruction for us concerning God’s plan for our lives.


And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.

And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so.

And God called the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the morning were the second day. (Gen. 1:6-8)


The theme of day two is separation. Much as a baby who is born must be cleaned up from the process of being born, we too as believers come into this walk with a lot of unclean ways that have to be cleaned up. However, unlike a newborn our cleansing will take a lot more time, this process represents the beginning of our working out of salvation.   Just as a baby isn’t expected to clean themselves notice who does the dividing on this day? It is God who does the dividing, our response is to submit to Him to do the cleaning. When he enters in our hearts He comes in with a mop, and His word is the disinfecting agent that cleanses us from our unrighteousness. As we allow the Light of His word to invade our darkness and to separate us from the water below and continuously feed us of the water above we find ourselves being renewed day by day. Cleansed by the washing of the water of the word. (Eph. 5:26)


One of the consistent experiences those who begin to walk with Christ discover is that they no longer want to do the things they used to do, and by design that means that it changes the allegiances we once had. Either your friends will make the changes you made or they will drop by the way side. You’ll find yourself making new friends who have a similar interest to fulfill God’s mission for them in life. In fact these friends will be like family to you in many ways, and depending on your natural families relationship with Christ will be closer than your natural family.


While it was never the will of YHVH for Adam and Eve to eat from the tree that brought forth death, we see that from the foundation of the world he planned for what could happen. The ultimate will of God for our lives is for us to trust and obey him. Hearing His will for our lives requires that we search ourselves for any hidden motives or agenda’s that are contrary to His will. In some cases if we are not hearing Him it is because of the distractions that we have put into place.


Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts. (James 4:3)


Dirty water indeed can be very distracting. It is only when we change the direction of our eyes that we are able to see the clear distinction between the two.


  1. What is it that you are looking at that is distracting you from seeing YHVH?
  2. Are there any hidden areas of your life that you are ignoring rather than submitting to Him for cleansing?
  3. How embracing are you of the changes he desires to make to your life?


The cleansing part of this process doesn’t help you understand His will for your life it is the necessary process to getting to His will. Let’s consider when YHVH meets with His people in the wilderness. They had three days of cleansing, separating themselves, and in a nutshell preparation for coming before the Holy God. This cleansing didn’t provide them instruction for what Yah’s will was for them, it positioned them so that they could hear His instructions, because He is Holy and NO flesh will glory in His presence. (Exo. 19) The cleaner we get the more prepared we will be for drawing nearer, and the closer we get to Him the closer we get to His will, which hasn’t changed from the beginning. To be in His image and likeness.


Coming very soon, putting the finishing touches on it.  But this is a definite need to have.  IF we ever needed wisdom we need it today.  Being wise as a serpent is a particularly important trait to have.  Once this booklet is complete we will be ready to move on to the other part of the instructions in Matt. 10:16 which is to be ye also as harmless as Doves.

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How To Understand The Will of YHVH for Your Life: In The Beginning

Day One: In The Beginning…

“In the beginning, God…”Genesis 1 now if I stopped right there I have already said a mouthful. However, there are so many things I would like to say with just those four words quoted. First of all before words were spoken, before waters were moved over, before time itself there was God, Elohim, Omnipresent, Magnificent, Awesome, and Mighty in power, God. Now let’s make it personal, in our beginning there is God, and it is only until we receive Him as our Elohim do we enter into real life, the born again life.

Gen 1:1  In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

Gen 1:2  And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

The broad road reveals that many people live their entire lives never living past being without form, being void (empty), and in the dark. They never complete day one in their development in life. They spend day in and day out existing without knowing who they are, whose they are, and where they are going. Yet, even they are accounted for in the six days of work that God did here in Genesis. He left nobody out in His plan, and He gives us a choice to either stay out or to allow His Spirit to move upon the face of the deep waters of our heart so that we can experience the warmth of what’s about to happen next.

Gen 1:3  And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

God begins to speak to us, first in Creation, and secondly of the work that His son Yahushah will do in our hearts. Notice what happens when He speaks? The entrance of light comes into the world. We know the Gospel tells us that Jesus (Yahushah) is the light of the world. (John 8:12) But not only that, he didn’t just say he was the light of the world, but he also said that we who are His are the light of the world. (Matt 5:14) Reminding us that from the beginning of creation we were not an afterthought but a forethought in the mind of God. Lack of understanding the purpose of our humanity and the responsibility God laid at our feet when the breath of life was given to us has caused many of us to live our lives aimlessly, selfishly, and wastefully.

If you or someone you know have not entered into the light of day one, then I encourage you to take this time to talk to the only One who can save you. To confess your sins to the High Priest chosen by the Creator of the Universe Jesus Christ (YaHoshua Ha Maschiach). Acknowledge Him as your Master, the Lord of your life, which means he has the privilege and the right to instruct you concerning how you should live and as any good parent would, he does lead you into the fullness of life. All of his instructions (laws) are given so that we can have life and that more abundantly.

Gen 1:4  And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.

Gen 1:5  And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.

Now as we bring the first day to a close notice that God said, first that when he saw the light that the light was good. The next thing he does is separate that which is good, the light from the darkness. Notice that he doesn’t say the darkness was good, but that the light was good. Darkness is there, but it is only when we come out of it, into light that it is good. My prayer today is that as you discover who you are and whose you are that you will come out of darkness, into His light. Allow the Holy Spirit (Ruach Ha Khodesh) to move over the face of the waters of your heart and you will submit to His leading you into the word of God which brings the entrance of light. Often as believers we can get stagnate in our faith, where we camp on being born and stunt our growth. We don’t continue to cycle through God’s week and as a result miss out on more light to shine in our darkness. The only thing that can happen when we live this way is death, just as that is all that stagnate water leads to. It is only as the Spirit moves the water that we have life moving in the water.  Nothing that requires life to live can live in stagnate places. Stirring the water is an essential part of having healthy life. So if you are a believer which I hope you are, and you have been walking with God for a while but find yourself in a stagnate place, call upon the Lord, as Peter called upon Jesus when he found himself falling in that water. (Matt. 14:28) It’s okay to come out in the water and walk with Christ, just remember not to take your eyes off of him if you don’t want to fall.



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How to Understand the Will of YHVH for Your Life: Part VIII Hearing Her Voice When She Calls

Understanding the seven characteristics of YHVH is the foundation for understanding the Will of YHVH for your life. Understanding is the necessary bridge we must cross in order to get to her, wisdom that is. If we think about knowledge as being on one side of a cliff and understanding being the bridge that connects us to the other side of the cliff we are trying to get to which is wisdom. The distance between the two being too far to jump across, and too deep to risk falling, then we find that we can have knowledge, but without the bridge of understanding the path is too far for us to get to wisdom, and unfortunately many people spend their entire lives paying for knowledge only to never even find the bridge of understanding to have wisdom before times up. If you find yourself having the fortitude to read this article and to have kept up with this series consider yourself in the minority of the entire world who will acquire degrees many, and will ever be learning, but never coming to the knowledge of the truth. (2 Tim. 3:7) Whose eyes will always be darken though they search for her (wisdom) with all of the tools that knowledge has within it’s hands.

Don’t get me wrong, knowledge is necessary to get to the bridge. I mean if we do not have the ground beneath us to hold us up we are free falling in which the end of that person is destruction. So I do not minimize knowledge in this process of learning, I am simply saying that it is just the first step, but a necessary step it is. Those who neglect this step can find themselves as pointed out dead before they find the bridge. Knowledge is the basics that we can acquire and reveals that we are reaching for God, but understanding requires humility. It means that we have to depend on someone greater than ourselves to translate the information we have received. The lithmus test to our understanding is revealed in our application of the information we have, and wisdom reveals that we understand why what we did worked. A person who has wisdom understands the formula thus, they can duplicate the recipe in the event of repetition being required. This is why a wealthy person who loses their wealth can easily acquire it again as long as they understand why what they did worked.

Wisdom is spoken of in scripture in the feminine form, and while our male counterparts may find some solace in ignoring us because of Eve’s deception, it doesn’t erase the fact that in Yah’s infinite wisdom He chose to connect wisdom throughout the book of proverbs to that of a wise woman. Unfortunately, too many of our young men will go down the road to destruction because wisdom had called out to him and their inability to discern the virtuous woman of wisdom from the seductive woman of whoredom causes them to make poor choices that have destructive consequences to their future. Thus as stated earlier if we pursue wisdom instead of riches we will receive both. This is the understanding of why Solomon achieved such great success. He didn’t seek after riches, rather he sought after wisdom, and understanding that wisdom answers the “why something works” question, meant that all the other things would come. Wisdom ultimately representing the Kingdom of God, we can now understand why Matt. 6:33 instructs us to seek first the Kingdom of God, and all the other things will come. This was walked out in Solomon’s earliest days in power, thus, God gave him all the other stuff because he sought the Kingdom in his request.

Think about it, if you understand why your body functions better with certain foods rather than others then it stands to reason if you follow the wisdom you acquired your life will be healthier and longer. If you understand why your business formula produced wealth then you understand how to duplicate it thus your pockets get fatter.   This is why proverbs not only connects wisdom to the feminine gender but also compares it to rare jewels like rubies, or precious minerals like gold. It may take you a lifetime to find the formula, but if the formula is accurate it represents a greater wealth to leave down to the next generation then a handsome trust fund. How many children do we know who didn’t get their parents formula for success grew only to lose the wealth their parents acquired in their lifetime? Had their parents had the wisdom to pass down instead of the accumulated wealth then the family dynasty would be established for as long as they kept the secret.

The word of Yah is the timeless formula that has been passed down from generation to generation that if believers lived by it would see generational prosperity. The reasons many believers suffer from the very diseases that the God of Israel said he wouldn’t put on His people, is due to his people not believing or knowing what his word said about how to have life, and have it more abundantly. Yes we know the scripture that says that Jesus came that we might have life and that more abundantly, but we haven’t figured out the formula that Jesus walked in so that the blessings that were upon Him would be upon us. While the poor would be with us always, this was not supposed to be the case for His children. His children were called to be the head and not the tail, above only and not beneath, to be lenders and not borrowers, why? (Deut. 28:1-14) Because our wealth just like our works are supposed to connect those who are without to the Creator.

Our misunderstanding the instructions of God written in the first five books has caused us to be subject to the very curses that Jesus came to deliver us from in this earth. A child of God will not lose their eternal life for eating a pork chop, but certainly they will forfeit the quality and quantity of their life for not taking heed to the Father’s diet. Ignoring the wisdom of the Almighty costs us something always. Let us not think that our disobedient choices have no consequences otherwise we will find ourselves prey to the enemy and food for his menu. Understanding the will of YHVH requires that we have a heart pliable to Him so that when He speaks we will hear and obey without delay.

Next week we will start looking at biblical examples of those who walked in their purpose starting with Father Abraham. We will extract what common threads we can see in their life and examine ourselves to see where we may be falling short. Scripture makes it clear that the things that were written were written for us on whom the end of the world have come. There is no greater time than now that we need to know what the will of YHVH is for our life. We cannot afford to ignore the voice of the Almighty, and we must recognize that our lack of obeying can have dire consequences for both us, and those connected to us.


Do you know why Jesus told us to Be as wise as a serpent?  Have you ever wondered why he said that?  Did you know the invisible things of God can be seen by the things that he has made?  (Rom. 1:20)  In this book based on Matt. 10:16 Torie zeros in on that phrase and shares from the characteristics of the serpent wisdom that transcends time.  Follow her through the scriptures and strategically begin applying the wisdom of the serpent to your life as Jesus instructed.


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How to Understand The Will of YHVH For Your Life Part VII: All For Love

The greatest part of being in the image and likeness of Elohim is He is Love. The bible is a lesson in love, because when we failed in the Garden, we fell out of love with our Creator, and became lost. We became so wicked and vial that God had to wipe us out and start over with Noah, an experience so traumatic that we find that Noah in this new world found himself drunk. Much as in the judgment of Sodom and Gomorrah where once again the wickedness and lack of love of a people mandated the judgment of the Almighty which ended in only a man and his two daughters surviving from the city. Our greatest challenge, yet our greatest victory will be in loving others as Christ loved us. Our very existence is the expression of God’s love for He is Love. The Hebrew word for love tells the story much better than mere English words can express.


אָהֵב    אָהַב

‘âhab    ‘âhêb

aw-hab’, aw-habe’

A primitive root; to have affection for (sexually or otherwise): – (be-) love (-d, -ly, -r), like, friend.

Strong’s Concordance


Important to note Hebrew is written from right to left so in honor of keeping true to the language I right Hebrew in the order it is written but explain it in English in the order in which we right.

The first character in this word “Ahab” which is the word for Love is the picture graph of an ox’s head. In Hebrew the letters of the alphabet are not simply symbols as it is in English, but they are characters. Each character is based on the function of the animal or thing that it represents. Thus, (aleph) is the picture of an ox and an ox is a strong domestic servant. Hence, the character means strength. In Hebrew the characters also double as numbers and so (aleph) being the first character in the Hebrew Aleph Bet means first. The second character in the Hebrew word for love, which would be in the heart of the word is the character, Hey (hey), which is the picture of a person with their hands up beholding something greater than themselves. Thus to behold, to reveal, or to see is it’s meaning. The final character is the second character of the Hebrew alephbet and it means house        (bet). It also means inside because the most important function of a house is those who dwell within it. The interesting picture is that the first aleph and last bet character of love means Father. Thus the Father is the “strength of the house”. By inserting the hey in the center of the word we see that love is to see the father. Scripture teaches us that no man hath seen the Father at any time, but the only begotten son that is in the bosom (which is the heart of our being) of the Father hath declared him. (John 1:18) Thus when we saw the Son, who walked in full obedience to the Father has become for us the revealed love of God. Powerful. The love of the Father (betaleph) was revealed (hey) in the birth, life, crucifixion, death, burial, resurrection, and ascension of the Son (Y’hushah Ha Maschiach, Jesus the Christ).

The greatest character flaw we as people reflect by disobeying the will of God is that of love. Because love was obedient even unto death, even death of the Cross to YHVH (Abba). (Php. 2:8) Walking in love is doable. It is the way of the transgressor that is hard scripture reveals. (Prov. 13:15)  Because we were made in the image and likeness of God, we were created to walk in the fullness of His character, our bodies were not created to sin, and thus sin equals death within because it requires us to fight against ourselves.  Scripture makes that clear a house divided cannot stand, and thus we bring death upon ourselves by walking contrary to the character of the Almighty.

Walking in love leads to longer life it is the heart of why the first commandment with promise comes with living longer, that if children honor their father and mother. (Exo. 20:12) It is the message of 1 Jn. 4 which determines if we are children of our Father God or of the father of lies the devil.   It is how we know we are in God and he is in us, and the blessed assurance we can have in knowing that if we are in him we can have boldness in the day of judgment. Our walk in this life is working up a judgment on our behalf, one that will bring about boldness for our good, or condemnation towards our end, however we must make that choice.

Finally as we end with the characteristics of God that ought to be in us as the foundation in our teaching of understanding the will of YHVH for our life, I want to encourage you to live your life in obedience to YHVH. Not because it saves you, but because you love Him, even as He loved you and walked before you the life you ought to live. He did that so you won’t have an excuse to do otherwise, seeing that the one we are to imitate has left His testimony for us to follow. I realize this world doesn’t make it easy to do what is easy to do, but always remember that the whole world lies in wickedness, and it is darkness’s job to try to drive out the light, but it is the lights job to shed light on darkness because the two can’t inhabit the same space. So instead of putting the light of Christ that is in you under a bushel let it shine before men so that when they see your good works they will glorify your Father which is in Heaven.


If this teaching is blessing you be sure to pre-order the one before it on The Serpents Wisdom.  The message if applied to your life and your way of studying scripture will help you transform your life so that you can live a powerful life before YHVH.





Ancient Hebrew Characters used courtesy of AHRC.  Please visit them for more information and resources to learn about this beautiful language.


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How To Understand The Will Of YHVH For Your Life: Part VI Submission

Submission in our culture is looked at as one of those dirty little words, somehow it gets thrown in with feminism as a curse word of some sort. However, the greatest example of submission was modeled for us at the garden of Gethsemane where our Savior submitted himself to the will of God even unto death. Eve in her deception failed to understand that her decision caused her to be submitted unto the enemy and placed her in direct opposition to the one who made the command. Adam submitted to his wife, which caused him to be in direct rebellion against YHVH.


All throughout scripture we see scriptures that admonishes us to humble ourselves under the mighty hand of the Almighty. To submit to God, for husbands to submit to God, wives to submit to husbands, and for the body to submit to one another. There is a divine lesson that is being taught, and that is if we desire to be exalted we must humble ourselves as servants.


In the bible the English word “submit” appears twelve times, but the original Hebrew and Greek words for the English translated word has various meanings and appear more times in scripture under different English words.


H6031 appears 89 times in scripture and was translated as “submit” in Gen. 16:9. The strong’s meaning is:


anah – A primitive root (possibly rather identical with H6030 through the idea of looking down or browbeating); to depress literally or figuratively. If you were to do a word search in Strong’s you will see this strong’s number appear 83 times, but translated as “submit” only once.


The next Hebrew word that is translated as “submit” is Raphas:

Raphas (H7511)- A primitive root; to trample, that is, prostrate: – humble self, submit self.


This word appears 3 times


Kachash (H3584) – A primitive root; to be untrue, in word (to lie, feign, disown) or deed (to disappoint, fail, cringe): – deceive, deny, dissemble, fail, deal falsely, be found liars, (be-) lie, lying, submit selves.


Total KJV occurrences: 22


Now this last one appears to have a completely different definition from the other two. Though it appears 22 times, the consistent definition seems to be for the word “lie”. This last one is the only one that doesn’t seem to fit its use. For the sake of understanding the character of God it is clear we can delete the last definition from our view of the Hebrew word for submit seeing as YHVH is NOT a man that He should lie, nor son of man that he shall repent. (Num. 23:19) That said we know that there is no characteristic of God that can lie or fail. The second one fits perfectly as this was the characteristic we see of our Messiah who humbled himself even unto death, the death of the cross. (Php. 2:8)


Walking in love and in submission is a very easy thing to do when people are moving in accordance to the plans we already have or in accordance to our will. The problem comes in when there is conflict with the person in whom we are submitted to that is in contradiction to what we think should be done or how it should be done. Submission is often thought to be synonymous with obedience, but submission is more of a heart attitude rather than an act. This is difficult for me sometimes because I can often obey what I am told to do, but my heart is not in it. No one else but God and I may know it, but it is the greatest challenge in life that I must submit to the altar of YHVH. As it relates to things like food this is no big deal, my body may want a Big Mac, but rather than obeying or submitting myself to that desire I will eat what I know my body needs. This becomes a problem when it relates to those who God has given as a covering for me. The enemy’s tactic is to cause me to question their intention, but what I have to remember is there is a way that I can have a heart right towards God without obeying what those who are in authority over me request. For instance, Daniel is a great example of this, Daniel didn’t obey the King’s command not to pray to his God, but Daniel didn’t disrespect the authority that was over him. He didn’t boast in what he was doing, nor defiantly rebel, he peacefully disobeyed man and when he was caught he didn’t go off on those who enacted the penalty for that decision. We have to remember that even when we are standing on the right side of the issue we will be faced with punishment when it goes against the demands of an evil government.


Today we see this blatantly taking place as it relates to the President of our country. People have no qualms speaking their minds in direct disrespect towards the authority who was voted into power. One can disagree with the policies of the President without disrespecting or speaking in opposition of him. The fallout of such behavior has led to the open unsportsman like cutting under the belt type tactics that we have witnessed during this political season. Instead of watching possible contenders for President of the U.S. debate the issues that the people face with a clear direct plan and focus on expressing that plan we have seen name calling, and childlike behavior, with lack of substance that will benefit the people. Yet, come January we as a nation will find ourselves under the authority of one of them, and if I hadn’t learned the test in my home on how to continue walking in what Yah has told me to do, even when those who around me don’t understand, who are in authority over me then how will I deal with it when the power that governs me on a national level impact me? These are things to consider, however, the examples in scripture reveal that it is always in order to submit to authority, and always in order to obey God, and when the two are not at peace with one another the response must be it is better to obey God rather than man, and be prepared for the persecution that may come as a result of your stand.


Thought the natural inclination of the flesh when it comes to impending or even potential pain is to flee, there is no scripture that promotes that sort of behavior. We are to remain humble before authority even if it is wicked authority, but with full obedience and unwavering allegiance to the King of Glory, and if that ends in stoning like Stephen, or stripes like Paul, or being cast into lion’s dens and flaming furnaces so be it. Obedience without question to YHVH with submission without waiver to the authority He has put in place. For the heart of the king is in His hands and He can turn it withersoever he wills. (Prov. 21:1)


Lack of submission to appropriate authority reveals weaknesses in our faith in Christ, and reflect the areas in our lives where we have failed to die to our own will. Forsaking all for the kingdom of YHVH requires that we lay aside our way of thinking and submit ourselves to His way of thinking. This is why we are to pray without cease, it is in praying without ceasing that we learn the lessons of yielding to His Spirit. I had a love test this week that I know I failed, in my own hurt and disappointment I chose to allow my flesh to be satisfied with walking beneath the level of love that the Father has put in me. When we see such blatant ugliness and hateful acts purposefully poised against us the natural response is to retaliate. As I stated earlier it is easy to submit to those who submit to you, to love those who love you, to obey those who obey you. The test of if YHVH is in you is how do you respond to those who do the opposite? To those who despitefully use you, speak evil against you, and take under the table pop shots against you. Do you share the love of God with them or do you find yourselves lead by the same level of evil that they poise against you? Know in advance that for those types of people your love may continue to be returned with hatred, your service may yield no return from them, but your obedience to Christ in the face of such treatment will yield much reward in the kingdom of Heaven. So sons and daughters remember in whose character you walk, and in whose authority you are under. Submit to those who are in authority and walk humbly before your God.



  1. In what ways are you being challenged to submit to those responsible for your care (home, government, world)?   What is your heart attitude towards those figures? If there is an area where you are failing read the stories of how Christ handled authority in the face of conflict and apply what He did to your life.


  1. Who is the authority in your life? Both direct and delegated. List them, and ask yourself if you are submitted unto them in the Lord?


  1. What is the difference between submission and obedience? Is it clear in your mind when you need to obey God rather than man? Remember the scriptural wisdom provided to us to battle the temptations brought to our mind, to first submit to God, resist the devil, so that he must flee! (James 4:7)





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How to Understand the Will of YHVH For Your Life: Part IV Distinguished by Distinction

Walking in the character of YHVH means we are a unified one, with three parts of our one being, that are equally important and now we learn created with distinction.  Even amongst equals there is a first, and we know that first is YHVH, the Father.  The will supercedes the words we speak or the actions we take.   The will is the driving force behind us, the motivation in what we do, which is why God takes it straight to the gusto with us bypassing the superficial things that mankind looks at and looks directly at the heart.  It is only at the heart of the matter do you get the truth of the matter.

In our world we have magnified equality to the point that we want to completely remove the importance of distinction.  It is distinction that is being attacked in the feminist movement.  The feminist movement proves that Eve still suffers from the same area of deception that she suffered from in the beginning.  To trust YHVH, who said that when He created us He did so in His image and likeness.  What did the serpent do?  He caused her to doubt God, and question her identity.

(Gen 1:27)  So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.

(Gen 3:5)  For God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil.

(Gen 2:17)  But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.

Gen 3:4  And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die:

So let’s just consider the course of events, God said we were created in his image and likeness.  What does the serpent convince her?  That only if she eats from this tree God forbid them to eat from shall she be as god.  The next point God said if you eat from this tree ye shall surely die, what does the serpent convince her?  Ye shall not surely die.  What is the point I am making?  The enemy is very successful for helping us answer the wrong questions and consider the wrong things.  For instance the question we should have been thinking is why do we want to know evil?  How is eating something going to give us what we already have?  So what are we doing today?  We are forcefully fighting for the equal right to fight in wars, yet we don’t see men fighting for the right to carry a baby for 9 months or breastfeed one?  The enemy has us fighting the wrong battle because he has successfully caused us to ask the wrong questions.  Which leads to us being at war with the distinction God created within us.

Our distinction when celebrated makes us a very pivotal part of fighting any war.  Every war requires healthy soldiers.  We are the suppliers of those soldiers.  We are the necessary part of the development process for men to learn and develop courage.  He gains confidence from the security he gets from his mother’s voice.  Her nourishment returns in him a courage that for her he will fight to protect.  Yet, this is only half of who he is, the distinctive role of the Father is where he begins to understand his purpose.  Having confidence with no aim is fruitless.  While mom helps him understand why and how, it is dad who helps him know what to do and when.  Together their distinction makes for an equipping team that when appreciated and respected will help a son or daughter confidently walk out their role in life.  You never send a woman to do a man’s job, and a man cannot do a woman’s job.  If we can learn to equally appreciate and respect our distinction then working together we can fulfill our God given purpose.  It is futile for us to expect that we can achieve peace among nations when we aren’t even at peace among ourselves.  Just because we can do something doesn’t mean we should.  In this battle that is raging against the sexes and in our zeal to prove to men that we can do their job we don’t ask ourselves what’s the end to erasing the distinction?  The end is the perverted product we see before us, where men want to be women and women want to be men.  Where people are offended by being recognized as a specific gender.  Children being required to produce their own spiritual and physical nourishment.  While we are on a quest to fulfill missions we weren’t called to our children are being sacrificed to the wolves.  Confused about who they are and about who they are supposed to be.

Scripture reveals distinctions, distinctions among women and men, and between the Father and the son, and the roles we serve in the family, community, government, and world.  He also gives us examples of those who forfeited the victory for not appreciating it. (Jdgs 4:9) Those of us familiar with the one woman who was a judge in scripture.  When she does that which was the responsibility of the King in leadership she makes it clear that her involvement would come at a personal blow to him.  Because just as a woman takes on the identity of her husband, in a war a victory is given in the name of the one who conquers.  Deborah understood what this meant and though she accepted the position that was being given to her, she didn’t grasp for it.  YHVH can use man or woman to achieve His goal, as we have seen He can use a donkey too, none of God’s creation is off limits as it relates to him fulfilling His will, but it does come at a personal loss to the one to whom the responsibility was given.

There is a distinction in God, there is a distinction in God’s creation, a people who don’t understand that will inevitably self destruct.  So what can we do?  Women, celebrate who you were created to be in Christ.  Society doesn’t have to value you for you to be valuable.  A society that doesn’t value wisdom, will soon experience the error of that decision.  Because to oppose wisdom leads to folly as proverbs reveal.  Indeed we are valuable, we are compared to wisdom, when proverbs speaks of wisdom it speaks of her and she.  Our boys learn to be men, as mom’s appreciate being women.  As we become comfortable in being who we are they learn to be comfortable in being who they are, and as we do so we will see them rise to the occasion of being the warriors, protectors, providers, and the conquerors they are destined to become.


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Getting closer to the finish line on this book.  Too many of us are losing wars against the enemy of our soul because we don’t understand the war that is being waged.  We don’t understand the strategy that he is using to fight us.  As in this weeks teaching we see that the serpent was more “subtil” than any beast of the field. (Gen. 3:1)  Many wars in home isn’t sparked by blows to the fist, that is the reaction.  It starts with what thoughts we keep.  Notice, I didn’t say what thoughts you think, but the ones you keep.  Adam and Eve was given every tool they needed to cast down the thought the enemy gave.  But they didn’t.  Many of us are losing the war today for the same reason.  In this book you will learn how to use the wisdom of the serpent in achieving victory in your life.  You will be able to defeat the enemy with his own artillery, and learn how to apply the wisdom of the word of God in the practical way he presents it.  We can understand the invisible things of God by the things which he has made.  (Rom. 1:20)  It’s time we take him at his word.


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How to Fight Darkness


Many of us are engaged in a war in which we can’t see our opponent because we are fighting in the dark.  Instead of turning on the light we are trying to fight the darkness with the wrong tools and at a great disadvantage.  How can you effectively fight against something you can’t see with your human eye?  Like King Saul we suggest and use the wrong armor to fight the battle. Can it really be as easy as turning on the light? Are the behind the scenes questions we have injecting doubt in Yah’s ability to give us the victory with merely a slingshot and five smooth stones?  Human effort will cover the earth looking for solutions from without for an answer that begins from within.  We simply need to just turn on the light.  Light can drive out darkness better than your broom can sweep it out, or your weapons can coax it out.

Now one might think to themselves that sounds easy, but have you ever tried to turn on a light in a dark room?  How easy is it to find that switch or a nearby flashlight without even a flicker of light?  How many obstacles must you circumvent to get to that place where illumination resides?  It’s much easier to turn on the light when you have light to see, now add to the obstacle unfamiliarity with your location.  Let’s say it’s pitch black in a vacation home instead of your home.  How much harder now is it to see and to navigate territory that you have not had time to commit to memory?  Add to this the surge of adrenaline you get as you naturally begin to feel fear because the darkness becomes so thick that you can feel it.  It is no longer just external, but it is now amplified. It becomes very difficult, even paralyzing.  The only thing that could possibly break through is the power of love for someone else, like a husband his wife, or a mother her child.  Is this not the very story of the Gospel?  God so loved the world that He sent His light into the world to overcome the darkness we were to helpless to defeat.

Now we can have His light within us.  As the word of God He should be burning within us at all times, because His light within us can’t be turned off.  Isn’t subject to power surges, and does not dependent on daily hours to operate.  In fact His presence within us becomes that much brighter in the presence of darkness.  The amount of light we possess is directly linked to the amount of confidence we can have in the face of darkness, even strange darkness.

And God said, Let there be light: and there was light. (Gen 1:3)

Created in the image and likeness of God, He allows us to see in the natural the comparison of His spoken power.  Today we have voice activated lights that allow us to visually comprehend the spoken power of God’s word.  At only His word darkness was interrupted by the presence of His light.  Amazing, that God will allow man to make something that demonstrates His creative work in the beginning.

In life we often think we must do some great thing to do the works of God, when Christ was showing us all along that all we need is to believe God enough to speak to the mountains in our life for them to be removed.


And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you. (Mat 17:20)

Now don’t get me wrong speaking to the mountain is not the hardest part of this process.   Scripture reveals the hardest part of this process is believing, which is why Jesus doesn’t start this conversation with what they are saying, but correcting them on their unbelief.

And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief. (Mar 9:24)

Realizing our weakness the Gospel records the thoughts that anyone who has experienced a trial in their life has felt in this very passage.   We have the benefit of this passage to see the compassion of Christ when healing this fathers child, because this man was sincere enough to admit what God already knew.  He needed help with his unbelief.  If we live long enough we all will have storms that we will measure God’s ability based on our limitations.  Like this man we must come before God in honesty admitting we need Him to help our unbelief.  We also need to realize that unbelief can be conquered, but it does require an interruption in our day.  Business as usual must come to a halt and like Christ we must separate ourselves from the circumstances of life so that we can hear the instructions from the Father.  To be still and know that He is God means we may have to find a quiet place, deny our flesh through prayer and fasting, and turn on the light of God’s word where we will receive illumination for our circumstances.


Scripture admonishes us to be as wise as a serpent?  What a curious statement that of all the animals God created the serpent is the one who God tells us to be like when it comes to wisdom.  How powerful is that?  In this book we will explore the characteristics of a serpent that translate into viable wisdom for us as believers to apply to our lives.  We will be challenged in our thinking so that we look at things from a different perspective.  There are many lessons in the bible and in the things God created that many of us don’t take time to consider.  This book will begin to help you to be more sensitive to the nuggets of wisdom that escape the one who just takes a casual glance at scripture and encourage you to dig deeper so that you can have all that God has for you.



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Why Do Bad Things Happen To Good People?

I’ve heard this question asked by many people. Usually from those trying to explain the nonexistence of God, which usually sounds something like, “if there was a God why would he allow bad things to happen to good people?”   Or by others trying to understand why they lost a loved one unexpectedly. The question is indelibly, why me? Well, I just wanted to share some of my thoughts from what I received from scripture. First and foremost, there are NO good people. So the question is a misnomer because we ask it comparing people to ourselves. Jesus, the greatest or “goodest” man who ever walked the face of the earth stated there was none that was good. (Matt. 19:17)   However, even if I consider the question from the standpoint of comparing ourselves among ourselves, in which scripture also has something to say about that, then this is the approach that I would share it from. (2 Cor. 10:12)

God’s ways are so far greater than our ways that even from the aerial view of a plan tens of thousands of feet in the sky we still can’t imagine the love God has for us. There are two passages of scripture in particular that the Holy Spirit dropped in my spirit concerning this.

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: Isa 55:8-10 


The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance. 2Pe 3:9


Now concerning the first passage of scripture, remember the plane analogy I just shared. From an airplane the earth looks like a multi-textured quilt interwoven in various patterns, and it appears so small that you can see States from an oval window at once. Now imagine God sees way more than we can see from an oval window in a plane, which means that while we are like one speck of dust compared to the multitude of people everywhere from His view, we look at our pain, our circumstances and we isolate ourselves from the world. Forgetting the second passage of scripture I shared, which is that God is longsuffering for a reason. That reason is he desires that none shall perish. He even cares about that man who went into the Emmanuel AME  ministry and murdered those people in Charleston, and watched as they prayed then killed them with no remorse afterwards.  Before you get angry at me for making that statement, just keep reading.   Why would he allow this person to live and so many innocent people to die? Well, because God sees our eternal welfare as being more important than our temporal state of being. Read Acts 7, here we see Stephen sharing the truth with his own people, just giving them a history lesson of the faithfulness of God and the unfaithfulness of God’s people. After he shares this profound truth with them they didn’t rejoice and thank him for this revelation, but stoned him. God would allow a man who is doing His work, and according to the passage itself full of the Holy Spirit to be stoned to death. He didn’t allow him to escape it, didn’t raise him from the dead, but rather brought him to his heavenly place to enter into the glory set before him. From our perspective it would seem that the just thing might have been for God to strike down those wicked people for murdering him, but if he did that what would be the eternal state of those who died? We know that it is appointed unto man once to die and then the judgment. This means the end result for such a person in this position would be eternity in the lake which burns with fire. As important as this life is, it is temporal, no matter how we exit it, the point is we will exit it. Whether we suffer for our sake or righteousness sake we will not live forever in these bodies.


Rom 8:23  And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body.

Knowing where you will go when you exit this body and being able to rejoice that our name is written in the lamb’s book of life it is the security that we as believers should have that helps us keep a heavenly perspective when we are faced with hellish circumstances. I don’t weep for believers who meet their Maker, they have gone home as Paul puts it.

We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord. 2Co 5:8

One might say then if that is the case then why don’t we just end it all, before someone takes our life, or at least then I can choose how I exit? Because your life is very important, like Paul you have a mission and your heavenly reward is based on you completing it. Eternal life is a free gift that we receive but don’t confuse the perks of position with the benefits available with it. There are rewards for living a dedicated life to Christ, not in quitting life. In fact scripture makes it clear that quitting is not an option that reaps reward, no matter how hard things get.


And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God. Luk 9:62

But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death. Rev 21:8

Those who give up on life fall under the category of the fearful, and faithless. If we are living for ourselves and consider our lives to be our own, instead of being that which is bought with a price then we fall under that category. Some days we can feel like it takes way more courage to live than to end it all.  Your life is valuable and even if not to anyone but Christ, then live for Him. He gave up this life so that you could have eternal life, that is why there is no greater love than His. Indeed bad things do happen to innocent people, and isn’t it awesome that we serve a God that knows that intimately.

I did a series on Matt 10:16 focusing on the characteristics of a serpent that we as believers should apply to our lives.  Isn’t it interesting God didn’t say be ye as wise as Solomon, yet though he was given wisdom unlike any other man.  Think about it, we are in the situation as humans that we are in because a serpent was able to deceive Eve.  We need to tap into the wisdom of a serpent from a heavenly perspective, so that we would be able to defeat the enemy of our lives with the wisdom that God has made available in the earth.  I am making it available as an e-book. This e-book will show you:

  1. How the characteristics of a serpent can translate into wisdom for a believer and how we should walk in that wisdom.
  2. How to understand how Spiritual principles can be extracted from getting a natural understanding of how God created the serpent.
  3. Often times we don’t get what we need in our walk with Christ because we don’t hask the right questions.  The right questions in how we study can make a tremendous difference in its benefit for us.  It is insightful in that it will ask questions at the end of each chapter so that you can reflect on them and gauge if you are using this wisdom in your life.

The e-book is currently in pre-production, but you can fill out the form below to let me know that you are interested in reserving a copy.  The cost will be $5.00.  I am making e-books to save on cost of printing.  If you would prefer a hard copy please let me know as you submit me your contact information, if enough people are interested in a hard copy I will provide print on demand, but the cost will more than likely be more than $5.00.


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Our Real Struggle in the Flesh

Too many people are basing their love for Messiah on what other people are doing. There should not be one person who leaves Yahushah because of what the body does. For as Paul said, “was Paul crucified for you?” (1 Cor. 1:13) This same question we must remember when we are confronted with challenges in relationships with organized religious leaders, spouses, and parents. Our relationship with the Lord should not be hinged on those who represent or misrepresent Him. The failure of these key figures to mirror the example of Messiah for us doesn’t reflect on Messiah’s love for us, but rather reveals a lack of Messiah in those who don’t walk in the love he exemplified.

If my desire to be a Godly wife is based on my husband’s treatment of me or his reciprocation to respond as a Godly husband then I lose a great opportunity to walk like our Messiah. The example He set for us is that while we were yet sinners he died for us. We didn’t deserve, we didn’t love and we weren’t reverent. As the scripture also says we love Him because HE first loved us. (1 Jn 4:19) It took a love out of this world to come to this world to show us what love was. If it could have been found in a human being other than Christ then He wouldn’t have needed to come. Yah sought someone who could make a hedge between him and us and none was found. (Eze. 22:30)

By all means I encourage ministers, spouses, and parents to walk in the footsteps of Christ, that they lose not their reward, knowing that to whom much is given much is required. Yes, I implore you as leaders to walk and respond to others as Christ dictates because I truly believe that he meant exactly what He said concerning it being better for a millstone to be tied around one’s neck and they be cast into the sea then to offend one of His little ones. (Matt. 18:6) Nevertheless, we make a grave error if we allow abuse to be an excuse for turning away from God. We misjudge the longsuffering of the Almighty upon what looks like a person getting away with wrongdoing in this life. Living a comfortable life, with lavish things, and good health is not proof that someone walks with God, no more than being financially poor, sickly in health, or living in deplorable conditions necessitate that someone is not a believer in Christ.

Paul suffered poverty, lived in deplorable conditions at times, and suffered sickness, and was in the will of God when he was in these conditions. (Phil. 4:11-13) The operative word, the most important point of his discourse as it relates to this condition is he did it through Christ. You do yourself no favors doing it without him. Because whether in or out of the body you will go through something, but it is far worse to do so without Christ. The first attack that will come upon a believer when these sorts of challenges face them is against their helmet of salvation. Don’t allow yourself to get to the “why me?” syndrome, this opens the door to the attack. The enemy will send sucker punches to your mind to cause you to doubt your standing with the Lord. It is important at this time not to take off our armor, and certainly not to allow what man does whether it is leader, spouse, or parent to cause you to give your helmet to the enemy. Be resolved within yourself to let NOTHING separate you from the love of God, no matter how hard the challenge may seem.

If you are reading this and you have left the Lord because of abuse done to you in a local assembly, or because of a spouse, or because of parents not reflecting the love of God, come back to God. As stated earlier, abuse is no excuse to turn your back on He who never turned his back on you. Do not judge Yah’s love for you based on what others do, as Paul said, was he crucified for you? As he makes clear in 1 Cor. 11:1 follow him as he follows Christ. The implication being if he isn’t following Christ don’t you follow his example. This is a lesson for us all, as inspired as the men who wrote letters for us in the bible were, only One man was without sin, above reproach, and died for you, all else were subject to missing the mark. All else had struggles with their flesh, and so will you. As much as David was a man after God’s own heart, he missed it on several occasions. Don’t think that because you will miss it that you don’t love God, and don’t allow the enemy to cause you to leave your relationship with God because of what others do.

Now don’t misunderstand I am not saying you should make yourself a mark for the enemies target practice either. Loving someone doesn’t dictate that you give them ammunition to shoot you, if the situation dictates you removing your presence then do so. However, you don’t have to be bitter as you go, choose to be at peace when you leave. Sometimes opposition comes because God knows you wouldn’t leave otherwise, so he has to make you uncomfortable. Other times he may tell you to stay, to release you later, but make sure that whatever step you take it is ordered by Him and not by a whim. It’s not about trusting people anyway, because there is no scripture that tells you to put your trust in man, God wants you to put your trust in Him. This is the challenge that is placed before you. As with Messiah there were times he was to stand and face adversity, but there were also times he was directed to flee the situation. It is only as we walk with Him will we be able to discern which one we should do. But my friends think it not strange the fiery trial which is to try you. Don’t be deceived by ministers preaching immature messages that would lead you to believe that if you aren’t having your best life now that you are out of the will of God.

Paul didn’t have his best life now, Peter didn’t have his best life now, and certainly Christ didn’t have his best life now. What they all had was a life that fulfilled the purposes of God before they left and that is what a life following Christ gives you. He tells you, you will have tribulation, and he tells you to be of good cheer because he has overcome it. (Jn 16:33) He tells you, the servant is not greater than the master, and thus if what was done in a green tree by the “powers that be” took place to him do you really think you will escape the tribulation to come? (Luke 23:31) We like Yahushah, like Paul, Peter, John, Stephen, and a host of others will have opportunities to leap for joy if we stay hooked up and we follow His instructions. He will allow you to go through the fire, but you best believe you won’t be in it alone, he doesn’t always circumvent the lion’s den experience, but he is able to shut the mouth of the lion, and think not that it is impossible for you to be at the peak of your career yet be faced with the trial of your life. Is this not the story of Daniel who because of his faithfulness to God was put in a place of leadership when he and his people were under captivity? Was he not thrown in a lion’s den for following the instructions of Yah?

If you are going through some challenges in your relationships, if you have been betrayed, abused, or misused, don’t give up on God. Hold on to your faith, and know that God is for you, no matter who is against you. We put way more trust and faith in people then the scripture allows, and therefore we make sweeping generalizations based on human shortcomings. There is only one who died for you, and there is only one you can trust without waiver, and that is Yahushah. Politicians, religious leaders, or even family members should not have your uncompromised trust, nor should they have the power to separate you from the love of God. We can only overcome our flesh by walking in love, because while faith may waiver, where hope gets tired, love never fails.

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Are You Being Called Home or Are You Being Sent?

Being called home is a releasing of consent on behalf of the called to choose to go somewhere they consider to be a place of comfort, love and joy. Being sent home is a forceful hand of rebuke to a place where scolding is about to occur. The writer Paul reveals a life of one who is being called home. One who is not being taken by surprise like a thief in the night to a place that is foreign to him, or that he is running from, but instead is being given a loving release into the hands of a caring Father who has said my son your work is finished and done well, now enter into your reward. He is not kicking or screaming at the thought of returning, but looking forward to it as one does a vacation they prepared for in advance.

“For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing”. (2Ti 4:6-8)


“And when he was come unto us, he took Paul’s girdle, and bound his own hands and feet, and said, Thus saith the Holy Ghost, So shall the Jews at Jerusalem bind the man that owneth this girdle, and shall deliver him into the hands of the Gentiles. And when we heard these things, both we, and they of that place, besought him not to go up to Jerusalem. Then Paul answered, What mean ye to weep and to break mine heart? for I am ready not to be bound only, but also to die at Jerusalem for the name of the Lord Jesus. And when he would not be persuaded, we ceased, saying, The will of the Lord be done.” (Act 21:11-14)


Paul speaks as a man ready to go home, to endure whatever momentary affliction necessary to get there. His hope and desires were not wrapped up in what this world could offer. Having suffered at the hands of preaching the Gospel to the lost, and even making lasting beautiful relationships with the children of the Most High, yet his mission was bigger than this earth could contain. He didn’t see himself as one who belonged to this world, but one who belonged to the Lord. Like Paul we have to make a decision are we going to be attached to this life and all that it entails or attached to Christ? Will we live to make a difference for the kingdom of God or a dollar for the advancement of this world?

We don’t face an economic crisis, or a security breach, we face a moral crisis, and a breach of conscience. -Torie McLaughlin

How else can one figure Paul saying, to live is Christ and to die is gain? Such an expression in the minds of psychologists would lead them to wonder if he was suicidal because of his current state. The pleasures of living had somehow cease and thus his mission enveloped his whole reason for living, to such a degree that death was an invitation to an upgraded benefits package.   By no means do I believe Paul was suicidal, I believe Paul was focused and non distracted by the temporary pleasures of this life. He was singularly focused and understood that his life’s purpose was greater than his personal pleasures. Those things which in our minds make life in this mortal body more precious to us then life in our glorified bodies with the Lord.

We must have a change of perspective. A fresh look through the lens of a disciple who disciplines himself to living for Christ regardless of his personal feelings or condition. Is Christ only worth serving when all is well in our world?  Have we relegated the living God to that of a Genie who grants wishes? Is our serving Him only done when things are going our way? I thank God that his unconditional love towards us was such that while we were yet sinners, not thinking about a Savior, He chose to die for us, the ungodly that we might have an opportunity to be restored to Him. When our frame of mind was to stone him, his was to forgive our ignorance. Life presents opportunities for us to really see where our faith lies. Sickness, disappointments, set backs, and set ups are put in place so that we can see whether or not we are Peter before Christ died or Peter after the empowerment of the Holy Spirit. Are we depending or leaning on our understanding and judging God based on our viewpoint or are we committed to Him even when we don’t understand what He is doing in our lives?

I’d like to say my faith is always where it ought to be in regards to this, but like Paul I have those moments where my flesh is in control and as he stated in Romans 7:19 “For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.” There are very personal areas in my life where my faith is being challenged, and nothing in the natural says that I should trust that things are working out for my good, yet in the midst of it, I know God is maturing me, and nothing that hasn’t been weathered after conditioning can truly be tested or made tough for durability. I am believing every wrinkle has a purpose and I am being seasoned for a greater glory ahead. If you too are being challenged just continue to hold on Yah is preparing you for a greater glory.

Finally, this is the question I ask myself, are the decisions I am making preparing me to be called home or sent home? Like Paul do I bear in my body the marks of Jesus Christ or the marks of my own wayward decisions? (Gal. 6:17) Will I allow Christ to be magnified in my body, whether it be life or death? (Php. 1:20) Am I keeping my body under subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a cast away? (1 Cor. 9:27) By all means I want to be called home when my time comes, but by no means do I want to be sent home. I am now sent to the nations through the tongue of my pen as a ready writer and trust me what I say to you convicts me too. (Psa. 45:1) I have by no means arrived, but I strive towards the mark of the High Calling of Messiah Yahushah and it is my duty as my brothers keeper to encourage you to do the same. (Php. 3:14) Shalom my readers and good night.


The Danger of Developing A “Forever Home” Mentality

We either need to break away from the idea of living in a forever home or we need to build a home we can live in forever. Depending on your family dynamics this notion can be an impossible accomplishment all in and of itself. Most of us don’t even consider the fact that we can have some down time between here and the grave we just believe we will have the same energy, stamina, ability, and mobility that we have today as we age. This is not a guarantee of life and as such we either need to allow for flexibility in our mind that at some point leaving what we consider home to be a possibility or we need to build a home that can accommodate whatever season of life we are blessed enough to enter. The greatest struggle I have faced with dealing with a loved one with cognitive deficits has been letting go of a home that they already had a vision in their minds that they would never have to leave. Their reasoning for keeping the home was to pass down to their kids but their kids no longer live in their state nor has an interest in the home. However, this being the case had no bearing on the attachment even when it was not feasible or functional for them to inhabit it.

The Lord revealed to me that if they do not let go of the home they will not live and the struggle to let go of that home has been the underlying root of every setback.  Whenever they would let it go they would begin to recover, but whenever their minds would send them back to it and they would try to recapture what is gone they would go down.  It is a real battle taking place in their mind as much as the battle the Israelites had with the Amalekites just before entering the promise land.  Like Moses when he was able to lift the rod the Israelites would win, but when his arms would drop the Amalekites would win. (Exodus 17)  It required two people to assist him to keep his arms up.  Likewise this battle for my family would be fought the same way, but the rod is prayer.  When prayer and intercession would go forth on their behalf the Lord would hear and they would get victory, but when prayer and intercession would cease they would lose.  Indeed God’s response to our prayer changes things.

Becoming comfortable can become disabling

What I find is we allow ourselves to become comfortable in whatever position we find ourselves in in life and our mindset can be our downfall. When it is feasible to do so keeping a home to pass down makes perfect sense, but when it is detrimental to your health and well-being you have to make room in your mind while you have your right mind that if circumstances dictated that the house you thought you would live forever in is no longer functional for you to do so it can be let go of.

Contentment with godliness is great gain, but attachment to structures can be devastating and lead to great pain.

The greatest legacy we leave our children is a relationship with the Messiah Yehoshua (Jesus the Christ). Because as long as we have him we have what we need in this life and we are prepared for eternity whenever it knocks at our door. Things come and go, homes can come and go the same way, we cannot put our trust in these things nor allow ourselves to get too attached. There is only one attachment man can have that will not lead to an unhealthy life and that is by design and that is an attachment to the Lord. We are told to meditate on His word day and night. (Joshua 1:8; 1 Thess. 5:17)  We are admonished to pray without ceasing, constant connection to the heavenly Father through our relationship with his son is a healthy habit we are encouraged to have. While too much water, food, and exercise are all things that are needed to live can lead to death or disease if done in excess, too much of Yah is not possible. We can never walk too close to the Lord, the closer we get to him the healthier we will be, the more we will accomplish in our lives and the more we will bless and love other people. A right relationship with Christ can only lead to a healthier, happier, more fulfilled life.  Disclaimer:  Don’t mistake what Christ gives us in Him with what the world gives us because they are against him, or what Satan will pull against us.  Remember the book of Job, Job went through a lot as a righteous man before the Lord, so don’t think that trials won’t come, sickness can’t come, and poverty is impossible, just know that if you walk with the Lord the peace He gives is irrespective of the things you own or don’t own, or the losses you suffer for righteousness sake.  He is the only healthy attachment, the home without limits that we can and should expect to live forever in and that no one can take away from us. Because once he is in us, he is there to stay.  The true forever home that can never be gone or go wrong.


The Real Expense of Our Baggage

Anyone who pays for luggage today to travel by plane, but has lived long enough to remember the days when luggage was a free commodity can understand just how much things have changed.   The days of 25 cents to mail a letter has now long since gone, for sure the transport of weight is at an all time high premium for those of us who travel or ship cargo. Today luggage is very costly to transport by plane and regardless of how valuable your things are to you, you will either have to pay the cost for your weight or lighten your load. Yah is the first one to encourage us to travel light, both physically and spiritually. Scripture is replete with encouragement to cast our spiritual weights upon him, to lay down every weight that so easily besets us, and to carry neither purse nor script when we are being led by him. (1 Pe 5:7; Heb. 12:1; Luk 10:4; Mar 6:8; Luk 22:35-36)

Messiah understood and walked in this weightless provision. When money was needed for taxes he paid from the mouth of a fish not from a wallet in his pocket. (Matt. 17:27) Weights not only cost you money, but it weighs you down. Those who have more then they can carry find themselves challenged with understanding what’s really important in life. They’ll fill their barns to the full with stuff that will out live their ability to use them. They’ll lie to themselves and others, cheat whomever they have to to hold on to what’s not important and in the process lose access to what is. We give more value to the things we possess in this life then the relationships we have. The man who can live his life not attached to these things will not only lighten his load but free himself up to care about the things that are important to God.

Consider “forever homes”, the issue I have with forever homes is the mental block it sets up resident in a persons mind to accept. We will give power to a house that’s sole purpose for existing is to accommodate the needs that our families have into some sort of unholy shrine that we must defend and preserve at all cost. A home fulfills a purpose like clothes fulfill a purpose if that home fulfills that purpose for you until you die you keep it, but if like clothes that become too small you pass it down to someone else, when homes outlive there purpose in your life you should not allow the home that blessed you to become the house that buries you.

To die for a friend is noble to die for a cause is admirable, to die for things is foolish. Father Abraham understood that what God gives you; you don’t have to fight to hold on to. While he was given much, nothing he was given had him. Thus it is said of him that he was looking for a city whose builder and Maker is God. (Heb. 11:10) What exactly are we looking for? Do we set ourselves up for failure when we look for those things in the things we possess, including our home? Sure we do and many of us will drive ourselves mad trying to hold on to something that God is trying to pry from our hands. Not because God hates us, but because He has something else for us. He is exposing the unholy attachments that we have placed in our lives so that we can free our resources, our minds, and ourselves to fulfill His purpose for our lives.

What is the fascination with things anyway? Think about it, the things that we struggle to acquire in life rob us of valuable time doing and spending with the people that we say matter most. This is why we have to be reminded that life doesn’t consist of the abundance of things that we possess, but it does consist of something are we missing that something that life does consist of? (Luke 12:15) He who puts his trust in riches will be shamed, but he who puts his trust in the Lord will never be ashamed. We are so weighed down in this world with so many things that even airplanes have to extract money from us to carry it, which should tell us something?

What are you worrying about today? Or more appropriately put what load are you carrying that is weighing you down? You may not be struggling with sin, but you have so much baggage that you can’t see the forest amidst the trees? There is a call that the Lord is giving us, and that call is to lay down our burdens at his feet, if we say we trust God in any area of our life we are called to stand by that trust regardless of what it looks like or feels like. If we are suffering from unbelief, then He doesn’t mind us asking Him to help us with our unbelief. Consider this what do we have to lose trusting him with our baggage? Is worrying, anxiety, and the distractions of daily living getting us closer to where we want to be in life? If it isn’t then clearly we are doing something wrong, and perhaps Yah is allowing it to consume us so that we can see that we aren’t able to bear it and we will finally give it to him before He has to pry it from our closed fists.

Consider the complexity of the universe we have inherited. How seasons come and go regardless of any preparation by us, yet like clockwork we know what to expect in winter and what to expect in the summer. Now, if God can handle the complexities of the universe causing the cycles of seasons to continue to evolve from one side of heaven to another why do we have problems giving him the stress of our mess to place in order? He is finite we are not, the one weight that we must contend with is the weight of the limited seconds, minutes, hours, and days we have on this earth, and while every year we commemorate our birth we simultaneously are made aware of the reality of our death which is to come. Question is, when that day comes will we be found faithful and will we be ready? I myself endeavor to be ready, and naked I came into this world, and naked shall I return into the loving arms of my Creator. Let’s not let our end be the only time that we lighten our load. Let’s endeavor to lighten our load today and experience the freedom that living footloose and fancy free can bring.


The Apostolic Family

Traveling is more affordable then you think. So often when considering raising money for college for our children we neglect the importance of having a vacation fund. Between school, work, extra curricular activities and the like we often consider vacations optional. Travel where few have gone before! Don’t think of traveling as just a vacation, but be on a mission as you go. Father Abraham paved the way for us concerning how we should look at traveling.  Abraham was given an amazing promise because he was willing to obey God and move from that which was familiar to him to look for a city whose builder and maker is God. (Heb. 11:10)  I would venture to say if where we are is not that place for us, then traveling is in your future.

There are so many benefits to traveling that we often take for granted.  We have such a, work yourself to death mentality that we develop vices that take our money to escape the slavery and drudgery work has become.  I don’t believe when Yah created man he intended for work to be drudgery but rather to be rewarding.  I believe he intended for couples to enjoy each other, enjoy family, enjoy work, and enjoy rest.  However, rest has become synonymous in the minds of most to laziness and this train of thinking comes from having a slave mentality.  A belief that you have to be busy every second of the day so much so that your mind and your body is on constant overload and in constant go mode which doesn’t surprise me ends in exhaustion and many brain disorders.  We do to ourselves what we don’t even do to computers.  Leave a computer on 24/7 without allowing it to be shut off and notice how much slower it moves, and how quickly you will have to replace it.  Yet, we think we are so sophisticated that we can just go and go without ever taking a moment to rest and we can just catch up some mysterious day in the future.  Life unfortunately doesn’t work that way.  Lost sleep can’t be regained on a later date it is simply lost and with each loss we depreciate the life of the battery put in by the Father for us.   While we are fearfully and wonderfully made as we are able to go and function up to12 + hours a day 6 days a week by design without malfunctioning we too have been given a mandate by our Creator to rest one day a week, and he didn’t stop there he gave us 7 separate vacations of rest every year.  Talk about a benefits package?  Straight from heaven!

Yah intended for you to spread out and fill the earth, his name was to be heard around the world and one of the best ways to take a city is to rescue a family.  To rescue a family you need a family to do that.  The world is seeking models of peace and a loving family walking in the fear of the Lord and the keeping of His Word sets the proper model for reflecting the manifold wisdom of Yah and changing lives for his kingdom.  It’s the sort of work one can rest in.  If we keep the weekly Sabbath and the 7 Holy Feasts of the Lord then we would naturally find ourselves in a position to receive and partake of God’s wisdom and understand what true vacations are made of.  Living by his precepts, judgments, statutes, and commandments allows us to live the life the world desires but have never seen with their own eyes.  It also allows for families to enjoy the benefits of travel as these feasts were not simply vacations, but they were saved up vacations, as a portion of your tithes was used to get you to the set apart place that Yah has established for His people. (Deut. 14)  Like the day of rest was set, so was the place where 3 of these feasts were to be kept.  It is the place he said he would make his name to abide. (Deut 16:16)

How to travel otherwise to distant lands spreading the Gospel of peace!  Having those days set and that place set doesn’t mean that Yah won’t make it possible for you to see other lands and spread the gospel other places.  One should always consider their travel a two fold blessing; time to connect with the family away from the distractions of daily living, and customary work that keeps your body and mind occupied as well as an opportunity to witness of the faithfulness and goodness of the King of Kings that has made it possible for you to do what you are doing.  The natural outcome of prayer, praise, and thanksgiving is the desire to share the goodness of what the Lord has done for you with others, and to encourage them that what he did for you, he desires to do great things for them as well.  While God’s plan for everyone is not the same, God has a plan for everyone and his desires and thoughts for them are only good and never evil, to give them a hope and a future.  Families need to hear and see the witness of that.  Our prosperity should be used to provoke unbelievers to jealousy for our God.  For them to want to serve the Daddy that has been so gracious to us to provide what we have need of, give us such great and awesome instructions that are truly the keys to a fulfilling life, and the freedom that comes from being set free from the bondage of sin that binds our hearts, and minds because we walk in shame instead of the liberty that Christ’s death, burial, and resurrection made possible for us.  A world bound in its sin don’t you think they need to hear that important message?  Well, if we don’t tell it then how will they know?  How will they hear if we don’t preach it?

Cultivating a shepherd’s heart in your children.  It’s no coincidence that the man after God’s own heart was a shepherd, and more then a shepherd, a vigilant one.  He took his responsibility to take care of his Father’s sheep serious enough that he didn’t consider his own life when protecting theirs.  Think about it, not just for a young boy but for a grown man taking out a lion and a bear is no small feat.  He revealed the Source of his strength to Saul, as he was humble enough to recognize that it was Yah who gave him the victory, which tells you that he was in communion with him. (1 Sam. 17:36) He was operating the way Adam should have operated in the beginning and this was revealed even when David was King.  He didn’t presumptuously go to war but he inquired of the Lord whether or not he should go up or not.  This wasn’t something that just started when he became the man of war, but when he was the ruddy boy tending to his father’s sheep.

This story reveals that it is never too early to begin teaching your children how to have the heart of a shepherd.  While David’s lesson came in tending sheep, traveling can open up the same opportunities as well.  Families reaching families for the glory of God, on one accord can change the way children interact with other children their age.  Rather then them, your children being led by the snare of the enemy, they can be used to conquer the control the enemy has over the entire world.  Making disciples of children while the parents make disciples of the parents.  As David learned the voice of the Father tending sheep so do your children learn how to tend the Father’s sheep by the voice of their parents.  As freely as you reveal in word and deed the character of Christ, it becomes a natural expression for your children.

A prophet is not without honor save in his own country and within his own home. (Matt. 13:57)   For this reason one should not be surprised that they will have less inhibitions, and much greater success when they leave from home.  At home everyone already has made up in their mind what your potential is and they close themselves off to the blessing you were intended to be.  Whereas, when you leave you will witness more fruit because people will more easily be able to see past you to see the God in you and be blessed by Him.  We too will be less stigmatized when we leave.  The bottom line is it is easy to take people for granted that you see everyday.  You become dull to hearing them and therefore it will take someone from outside to reach them.  To me this is the greatest argument I could ever consider for why families should travel.  You enlarge your territory and your area of influence simply by being in a different space because strangers are intrigued.  We tend to love to hear the stories of other people’s lives we don’t know and likewise does this occur for the people who we talk too.  This gives you an awesome opportunity to witness to them the love of God.

The Apostolic Vacation Fund

I have spent a great deal of time sharing why you should go on vacations, but now I want to pick up on the first thing I said concerning how to do this affordably.  The first thing I would say is put aside money for a vacation fund, whether that is a savings account that money goes in but can’t come out until that time arise or if self restraint is that big of an issue consider starting an investment fund in a CD or some other program that penalizes taking money out.  Make sure the money that you set to come out for your fund comes out before your bill money and after your tithes.  This is like paying yourself first.  If you don’t have any children or if you have very young children this will be even easier without the temptation of spending as your child should be the central focus for the first few years of their life anyway.  Traveling should be minimized because its not convenient and it exposes them to issues that could be medically conflicting.  A stable environment is what is needed at the formidable years of their life and there really is no incentive to travel with babies other then they travel free, but they won’t remember any of it, which makes the experience a waste of time for them.  Having you is the most important thing they can have at first.  However, consider where they are right now and you basically have a Ten to Twelve year span that you can begin saving money for travel.  Small trips within 60 to 200 miles can be done without even touching the vacation fund and check out my website for some great ideas for traveling local. The travel fund should be for big trips beyond the borders of your country.

Are you ready for God to enlarge your territory?  Set realistic goals and start reaching out right where you are.  Even though Jesus (YeHoshua) said he couldn’t do much in his area because of unbelief he did do the little he could do when he was there.  We are to do the same.  Begin sharing what Yah puts in your heart concerning outreach beyond the borders of your home.  Explain the benefits of stretching your family beyond your comfort zone so that your children will be well rounded people and develop the character of Christ by having a heart for people who they haven’t even met, and may be completely different from.   Much of the issue we have in schools with children bullying other children come from ignorance and lack of proper exposure to different people.  First and foremost make sure you have shared the gospel and your children have received the Gospel in their hearts before reaching others.  This is the hallmark for knowing when it is time to travel and get your feet wet in areas beyond your borders.  Like Father Abraham he commanded his children and household after him, we must do the same before we can be ready to experience the nomadic life of traveling in the footsteps of Christ. (Gen. 18:19)  The world have enough of itself being replicated, they don’t need any more people doing that.  What they need is biblical examples to imitate.  We need to know what Christ did and do the same.

Finally, we need to be balanced in our approach, because our God is balanced in his.  Vacations are simply that a means of vacating the premises, surroundings, and circumstances that we are used to and exploring areas beyond our surroundings.  As much as traveling should be relaxing and rejuvenating, it too should be about more then just us site seeing and having fun.  We should observe and immerse ourselves in the culture and not see ourselves as being separate from the pain and problems we see in the places we go.  Giving money is not necessarily the answer to solving these deep seeded issues, and if it were we would see more examples of Christ doing that if it was. Instead we see that he met their physical and mental deficiencies that prevented them from meeting their own needs.  If not being able to walk was the problem, he didn’t give money he gave the ability to walk.  If there was an issue of blood he didn’t pay for the surgery to correct it, he healed it.  I believe our obedience to step out in faith towards God will bring about fruit in diverse places and recapture the family our Savior died to save.

If traveling is something of interest to you and you would like to begin this amazing adventure then feel free to subscribe to The Critique where I will be sharing tips on how to travel affordably, comfortably, and safely.  If visiting the Holy Land is of interest to you be sure to invest in my upcoming documentary where I share with you how my husband and I traveled to Israel on round trip tickets for less then $500.  Also find out how to avoid some of the tourist traps.



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A Return To Respectable Femininity

In our politically correct culture there has been an assault on gender roles. Somehow it has become passe or a curse word to discuss gender roles and mostly pronounced by women then men.  For some reason both men and women have inadvertently diminished the prominent position women play in the family.  

Having an appropriate and biblically ordered family where the man is the head of the wife is associated with dishonor and is fought against with ill repute.  But for those of us on a rampage to erase these roles their seems to be a lack of thought concerning who will accomplish these very important tasks that still need to be done if we as women abandon them.  We sacrifice our children’s development on the table of institutional education which says career should come before love, being able to be “independent” is more desirable then trusting God.  Because it’s dependent on you to create wealth, although scripture reveals it is Yah who gives us power to create wealth. (Deut. 8:18) 

Yet all the women in our lives who we hold dear, albeit a grandma who raised us or an aunt who rescued us, or a mother who nurtured us, we respect and hold them dear not because of their education, but because of their presence, their sacrifices, and their love.  They didn’t give us lots of stuff but they gave us what they had.  However, we abandon their wisdom to follow our own path, make our own name, or to place the untested knowledge of book scholarship against the proven experience of a humbled life, then we’re surprised when scholarship failed us and our families suffer.  Marriages broken and children destroyed, we can’t figure out where we went wrong because our children received all the stuff our parents or grandparents couldn’t afford, but at the expense of the one thing that made a difference in our lives, relationship. 

Respectable femininity doesn’t have the new world perspective of success.  Its not quick to sacrifice its true assets for the paper substitute, nor the things that it can buy. It rejoices over teaching their children about God, sharing the importance of keeping their home, being there to share what’s important in life and willing to share both our failures and successes to protect and prepare children for life.  All of which can only be done by being present. 

This is the wife husbands should seek, a family man should be the husband a wife should want.  False understandings of security lead women to believe fat bank accounts will make them more secure, when the opposite is true.  In many cases more money attracts more women for men which usually result in infidelity and may end with you having some of the money, but no husband, thus no father in your home.  Interesting scripture doesn’t say a house is taken by freezing bank accounts, but by binding the strong man. (Matt. 12:29)  We foolishly believe we win in divorce if we get half of their assets, think nothing about how we’ve sacrificed our children’s security and how they lose their identity.

A virtuous bride, who desires to be a faithful and present mother is of greater value then riches. The world may never appreciate her, but the future is secure because of her.  She trains her children in the things of the Lord, and her reward continues even after she gets older.


Family Restructuring

While death has been as constant as life always, the older I get it seems as though funerals unite us more than weddings.  Times of mourning more than times of rejoicing.  Often many of us asking the question that scripture has already provided an answer for.  Why? From the time we enter this world we enter the race for the grave. Some choose to accelerate the race through suicide or suicidal choices that lead to homicide.  Others full of age having had the pleasure of experiencing all seasons of life give up the ghost to enter into either a place where time and aging doesn’t collide with aches and pains.  Others, in a place a thousand times worse then what this life could give.  Both wherever they are based on the choice they made while in this life.  To receive or not to receive the gift of eternal life made possible by Jesus Christ (Yehoshua Ha Machiach). 

The bottomline whatever their fate we feel the effects of their loss and our family’s must go on with the hole of that missing life within us. Many of us never asking the specific why question that is important, not why they died, for we all must walk this path, but why now? To which scripture also answers this question.  In the book of Isaiah Yah questions what we haven’t pondered through the process, the why now at least for the righteous

“The righteous perisheth, and no man layeth it to heart: and merciful men are taken away, none considering that the righteous is taken away from the evil to come.” Isa. 57:1

Most of us however will agree that things are getting worse in this world.  We are experiencing the shift scripture has told us about, understanding the blood of Jesus (Yehoshua) is greater then the umbilical chord of biology that connects us.  

Scripture speaks consistently of brother turning against brother, the enemies of a man being the members of their own household. (Matt. 10:21; Matt. 10:36)  We are living in that time where the righteous are entering into rest and the offspring are undergoing the test.  Whether they will continue to walk in what they were taught by their parents or depart.  Will we stand in truth or fall in disbelief?  While there is nothing new under the sun there is an intensity of the evil in this hour then the one before.  

The enemy of our God is getting closer to earth as he is falling from the second heaven with great wrath, and we find ourselves in the tremors of this growing storm. (Rev. 12:12)  Yet the Lord has told us how we will overcome, and should we take heed we’ll fair well. (Rev. 12:11)  

Expect betrayal

We have already been forewarned that a restructuring in our family will take place close siblings will betray one another being hateful instead of loving, having been seduced by this world they will betray their own blood.  Make up in your mind right now no matter what happens to stay with the Lord.  Let NOTHING separate you from the love of God.  (Rom. 8:39) As the family members you love more than life will be brought home in this hour and God won’t be asking your permission, nor will you necessarily have time to brace yourself for the blow. Have your heart and mind on one accord that you will follow Him no matter what happens.  

Despite the prosperity message we are getting from the Western church the scripture reveals entering into the day of the Lord is marked by judgment and persecution.  In fact joy will come through persecution, and not in our blessings or our college degrees will we boast but rather in our weaknesses and infirmities. (2 Cor. 12:6) The hour where the body decreases that the head of the body (Yehoshua) should increase in His glory through his body.  

Entering into this time can separate even that which Yah has joined together.  Scripture teaches us that forsaking for Yehoshua’s sake be it houses, brothers, sisters, or even spouses shall receive a hefty reward, even everlasting life. (Matt. 19:29) 

Hopefully it doesn’t come to that but we have seen in scripture in fact the book of Job is the greatest example of a wife who attempted to turn the heart of her husband against God because of the persecution they were facing.  Yet Job made up in his mind he would NOT turn on God no matter what he lost.  This is what Messiah was telling us when he said, 

If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. (luke 14:26)

This is the point, if we put anything or anyone before him that thing or person will be what we will betray him for.  Consider Judas who betrayed Jesus for money, or Peter who when faced with the fear of losing his own life denied Christ three times.  We mustnt only conquer the fear of losing our loved ones, but we may have to consider losing our own life. Bringing new meaning to my life is not my own.  

So the real question considering the earlier scripture in Isaiah as a Believer should not be why was our loved one taken, but rather why were we spared?  Why am I still here? What is my assignment?  For the spirit we should have is that of Paul, to live is Christ and to die is gain. (Phil. 1:21)  Submission to Yah dictates who my sister, my brother, and who my mother is, and according to scripture these designations are based on those who have the same will as our heavenly Father. (Matt. 12:47-50)  

Don’t get too attached

The moral of this article is this don’t get too attached. Be ready to move with Yah, wear this world like a cheap garment and be ready for the restructuring. Ask not why this person but rather always consider why not you? Meaning why have I been spared? What is my assignment?  Because you are still here for a reason and if you are in the family of God recognizing he gets to decide when that family should be restructured whether through physical death or a death of a relationship. 

Allowing God to structure your family means you don’t have to be afraid of being hurt because your trust isn’t in man, but in God.  

Saints, it’s time to trust God to put our lives and our families together as He sees fit. To mature in our faith so that we can rejoice in the Lord, counting it all joy no matter what befalls us, because life does consist of more than the abundance of things we possess and the horizontal relationships we have been blessed by the Most High to enjoy.  Love family while you have them and continue to love God who allowed your life to be blessed by your loved one. Recognizing we lose nothing in Him.